Mommy Failure?

I kept going back and forth on whether or not I would share this... Which is probably why I had a mental block on blogging for a few days. I knew I SHOULD discuss, but I guess I just wasn't ready to. It's part traumatic, part scary, and part embarrassing. But after sitting with it for a few days, I figured I would go ahead and share - writing always makes me feel better : )

Since Paige was born I prided myself on being a pretty great mom. Yes, things get chaotic from time to time and I feel like my head is going to explode, but I think I do a pretty good job keeping everything together. I love gallivanting with her all over the place and taking the bumps of mommyhood in stride. Emergency diaper change? I got that. Need a quick bottle? No prob! I get a thrill out of juggling all the different parts of being Paige's mommy. So exactly how I let the following happen, I'm not too sure...

I was up in NY visiting family, and was just finishing feeding Paige her dinner. I had her strapped into one of those portable booster seats, which was then strapped onto a dining chair. I was gabbing away while wiping off her face and hands. I snapped off the tray, unhooked her straps, turned around to put everything down and... BOOM! Paige toppled out of the booster seat and onto the floor. The whole thing happened in a matter of moments - probably not even one full second. I turned around in time to see her falling out, but couldn't move fast enough to catch her. She landed on the kitchen floor on her hands and knees (kind of like a crawling position). All I remember doing at that point is screaming at the top of my lungs. I scooped Paige up in my arms - she was also screaming and crying. All I could say to her was, "I am so sorry baby. I am so sorry" over and over again. At that moment I felt like a complete failure as a mommy. HOW COULD I LET THIS HAPPEN?!

Thank God, Paige was fine. The only evidence of her fall was a scratched nose which healed in 2 days. 10 minutes later she was back to laughing and playing. It seemed as if she had forgotten about the whole incident. I, unfortunately, still can't get it out of my mind. It's like an internal dialogue, with one side saying, "It was an accident. Everything is ok." and the other side saying, "You fool! If you let this happen, what is going to happen next?" I can't seem to shake the guilt. : (  But I'm working on it. And I think writing about it will help.

Ain't mommyhood grand? : ) Guess I'm not Super Mom afterall.

Little Sickie : (

For seven months, I've been one lucky mama - Paige has been happy, smiley and healthy. By yesterday at 2 p.m. I was convinced someone had swapped babies on me overnight. She cried ALL. DAY. LONG. And not just whimpers. Full on wails. No smiles. No playing. No napping! By the time Daniel got home form work, I had just about lost my mind. We figured she was just adjusting to being back home (we had spent the week prior in NY). She went down at 9 without much fuss - and then at 11 p.m. the "fit hit the shan" if you know what I mean ; ) Her bloody-murder screams jolted us both out of bed and we ran into her room to find Paige hysterical, with both nostrils clogged up. Poor baby! She obviously had a cold, but luckily no fever. I'm sure she felt pretty bad, but I think the worst part for her was not being able to suck on her binky (she couldn't breath out of her nose, so she had to keep her mouth open). We did all we could to help her clear out her nose - saline drops, that aspirator bulb thingy (SO THAT'S WHAT THAT IS FOR! ), humidifier. She was finally able to go back to sleep and actually slept through the rest of the night.. but I could hear whimpers over the monitor every once in a while, probably tossing and turning wondering why the heck she couldn't breathe through her nose! I called the doctor first thing this morning, but they said it sounded like a run-of-the-mill cold, and to keep doing what we were doing. As long as she didn't spike a fever and kept eating, she was fine and it just had to run its course. BOO! Don't they have a magic pill for baby colds? Guess not : ( Does anyone know how long these usually last for? And has anyone had any luck with natural remedies? My Google search for ideas proved pretty lame.

Signed,
Sad Mama of a First Time Little Sickie

What Will Baby Look Like? Find Out With the "Baby Morpher"

So I'm not gonna lie - this is a little creepy. But it's also kind of addicting. TheBump.com just launched a new tool called "The Baby Morpher." You upload a picture of yourself, and then your husband/baby daddy, and it somehow combines the two to create an image of what your baby may look like. Like I said - part creepy, part ahhh-mazing! : ) Here are my results...
 

Hmmmmm... No comment? : ) Lucky for us we got this little doll face in real life:

Whether accurate or not, it's still fun! Try it for yourself b clicking here: http://planning.thebump.com/baby-morpher